Visit to the Gym

So ... I'm starting a new venture of trying to take care of myself in all areas rather than just in some!  Of course (well hopefully), it will change how I look and while others may benefit from this, I'm doing this for me.  This is something I deserve, I deserve to feel good about myself and I deserve to enjoy life and all that God has given me. (my thearpist is going to love this bit)

Despite being completely embarrased (that doesn't actually cover it), despite the fact I realised I'd left the sports bra at home (so worried about this consequence), despite the fact I realised that my t-shirt doesn't actually come down to my knees and cover all the bits I want fixed and despite my efforts to lose my car keys at work 5 minutes before I was meant to leave (and I really did try hard to look for them) ... I actually went. I thought I was nervous, but no just embarrased that I've let myself get into this state.

Thankfully, I decided not to wear my jeans and polar fleece ... I was further embarrased that the room had windows, oh and light, I was horrified that there were other people there and oh that those who were there weren't wearing blindfolds ... funnily enough no one else seemed to notice me ... and that's a GREAT thing!



So as I'm standing there imagining the worst, thinking if I have to go on one of those running things I'm outta here (after I take the blindfold off of course).  But no even better ... I get to put on boxing gloves!!  I've never worn boxing gloves, they are bigger than .. well they're just bigger.  And the exciting news is, my 13 year old son (who no doubt will be traumatised for life now) is watching and thinks I'm cool ... once I figured out the left and right thing (and accounting for the fact that I'm REALLY slow), I did okay!

Not entirely sure what the next couple of things were, leg push thingys ... turns out I am a bit of a slow learner.  If the trainer says, how was that .. say "gosh, that's hard work" ... if you say "yep okay" ... they make it HARDER!!  Plus, I think these gym people need to learn to count, I'm sure it doesn't take that long to get to 20 ... well it doesn't when I'm eating chocolate anyway.
Swiss ball ... fortunately I didn't roll off .. but it's gonna happen I know it - just gotta pray it's not on a day the 13 year old is there!

Finally the stretches, hmmm ... not a whole lot funny there, apparently I'm not that flexible ... but seriously are limbs supposed to be able to do those things??

So ... that's some of my first experiences of the gym.  I think once I get over the embarrassment of being so self conscious, I will be okay - maybe better than okay.

To top off the day, I arrived home to a really nice dinner of salad, ham and home grown potatoes (not that I actually like potatoes) but given that my food today consisted of Special K for breakfast (NOTE I HAD BREAKFAST) and four plain cruskits) I ate one!  All was going well until I mentioned some of the things I needed to cut back on and something I needed to add to my eating .. Neil threw (literally) some more lettuce on my place ... which somehow the kids took to mean, "yes, lets all throw lettuce" ... funnily enough we all had a good laugh - great medicine!

Finally, I had a quick walk into town and back for icecream ... don't panic I didn't actually have any ... I ate a pear & skyped instead (yep, at the same time!).

So, despite being completely out of my comfort zone (COMPLETELY), I'm still alive, I can still move (for the time being), I believe I can do this & I want to do this.  Feel free to encourage and if you dare throw the odd joke in (pick your time thou!) ... just a warning thou, my husband is the only one who will get away with suggesting this blog be called "The Whale Watching Page" (and trust me, he hasn't got away with it yet!)